Those that know me know that I can pretty wordy!! Today, I wish to be brief, to the point, so
UNLIKE TONI!
Woke up with a deep sense of needing to do something... make a decision, face the facts, OBEY!
Today I decided to renew my vows, draw closer, restore my first love...
Things had gotten in the way, distractions some may call it... addictions, others may define it.
For the first time I can identify with the mental battle and deceit that goes on in our heads when we justify, rationalize our "extreme pleasure" with something or someone... also called "addictions" by most. Today, there were no more games played. It was straightforward and quite simple. IG had to go... at least for now, a long while, for a season. For those that don't know, IG stands for Instagram... a site where we post pictures and follow others who post pictures from around the world... sounds simple, sounds innocent enough,,, and therein was the problem.
Months of telling myself I was learning photography, growing in my skills, admiring Art, appreciating beauty and the Creator of it all, only led to a colder heart, distracted mind and priorities flown to the wayside.
Want to brag on our Lord and His patience, GENTLENESS and Faithfulness.
During the reading of the first chapter of Ephesians from The Messaage HE GOT TO ME... and it was rather easy to admit that IG had to go... just "not sure" when. I wrote my goodbye note and asked Him to show me when the time was right...
Like a diver posed on the edge of the diving board ( which I haven't done but have been on the edge of a bridge to dive into a lake on a dare !) I felt this was no time to think but to DIVE IN!! The button was pushed and the post was sent and the hole was felt but the pain was not there as I expected... a strange feeling came on me... like a person that's been shot but, still stunned, feels no pain. This confirmed to me the hold it had on me...and I realized I had been liberated in a rather painless way! This would have been MORE THAN ENOUGH for me... such GRACE! SUCH LOVE!
But no... our extravagant, LAVISHING GOD, had much more in mind... He gave me a fellow IGER to go through the process... and experience the elation of liberation! We both felt exhausted, washed over, danced and celebrated upon by Papa God.. we felt like two little girls that had finally decided to be obedient, and the rewards washed over them fast and strong!
"Leaving a Legacy" ... the talk I had with Christopher and Ellen on passing the baton of faith, leaving lessons and stories behind to share with the future generations, got me thinking... What will I be remembered for? How will I leave a mark on this earth? Will I? More importantly, was my life used to glorify Him and bring others to His saving grace? Heavy thinking... needed thinking... and He captured my thoughts and heart... again.
Wordy, you say? Nah!! There was so much more to this morning... words would do it no justice...
Suffice it to say... HE IS FOREVER FAITHFUL!!!
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